And now we wait. . .

Well, we got our homestudy completed last week. Now begins the 6 to 18 month wait for a placement. It was actually pretty anticlimactic, to tell the truth. We looked over the homestudy report that the social worker wrote about us to identify any misspellings or errors and that was it.

In celebration, I've spent almost $700 on baby gear in the past week. Hurray for shopping! I'm trying not to go crazy, but I wanted to round up the basics - pack-n-play, car seat and stroller system, some bottles and a simple layette of onesies and socks and stuff. My mom helped me shop at Babies R Us the other day - which was good because I pretty much had a panic attack in the bottles and feeding section of the store. I think it was just from the overwhelming number of choices and hopefully it doesn't signify a more deep-seated anxiety about the process moving forward. Here's the stroller and car seat we got:

It's a Chicco KeyFit 30 and Cortina stroller. I bought the matching pack-n-play they make, too:

I know that we will be parents in the sorta near future, but it all just feels so surreal and nebulous now. I hate feeling so out of control about such a major part of our lives. All I can do for now is scour the internet and ogle all the great stuff I get to buy that, hopefully, I'll actually get to use someday.